The following pages are excerpts of the first and fifth section from my memoir project for my Milton course. Using Milton’s writings as a guide, I analyze the “stills” of my relationship with my father, faith, and previous romantic relationships. I. “Muddy Pool” of the Past Stills I didn’t know how much I needed John Milton until now. My father has always been the patriarch looming over our family—commanding respect even though he never extended the same to his wife or children. He was a Buddhist but converted to Christianity when I was seven. His conversion transformed him, not in a positive light, but one that buries him in fear…